Are YOU in this blog?

A few years back a friend posted a blog like this, and I always thought it was a good idea. I've been very introspective lately, especially when it comes to the people in my life. So I thought I'd do this so all the things I want to say will be said.
1. You're probably the truest friend I have. We've known eachother for so long and been through so much together. There have been times when we aren't as close, but we always find our way back to one another. You make the effort to maintain our friendship even when it's hard, and for that I love you.
2. I never thought I'd drift away from you like I have. You were such a big part of my life for a while and I asssumed you'd stay that way. You are probably the only one who saw me at my very worst and I thank you for your support. It took a lot to get past some of the secrets you kept, but I know you had your reasons. I hope you understand my reaction to them. Hopefully we can drift back together over time when life is less hectic.
3. I'm so glad to be back in touch with you. I didn't remember how easy it was to talk to you. I can tell you just about everything. After all this time, it's amazing that we are still on the same wavelength.
4. You are my best friend. You are my partner in crime. You are just as dorky and silly as I am. Love you!
5. I didn't want to be your friend. I wanted to hate you. But I can't. If I think about it long enough I get creeped out, but I try not to do that because you are such a great person. I love you and your family very much. I am glad to have you as a friend.
6. You are the greatest addition to my life. I am very glad to have met you, and I'm glad we've grown so close. You continue to support and inspire me.
7. I wish you didn't let others get in our way, but you do. I feel bad for you, I feel that you've made the wrong decisions, and I wonder how you let things happen like that. I will keep tyring to made our relationship right, but it will never be the same and we both know it.
8. I am so sad that you're not around anymore. I am so happy for you, and I know you are doing what is the very best for you. I love that you make effort in our friendship and I hope I am doing my part. Our lives are changing so fast, but our friendship and bond is still there after all that we've been through. I think that is the test of true friendship.
9. I am so happy that you were brought into my life. You're truely a good person. I hope we continue to be friends.
10. I've come to realize that you are selfish and self-centered. You search for the things and people to make you happy, but nothing ever works for you, and I think that nothing ever will. For a while I made you happy and you were eager to have me around. But for whatever reason, I stopped making you happy and you moved on to others. I spent so much time, energy, emotions, and money trying to keep you happy and get back on your good side. But I have decided to stop. It kills me because for whatever reason, I still want your acceptance. But as of now, I have no more to give you.
11. You are doing so well in your life, and I am proud of you. I am glad to be back in touch. We can always have a great time remembering the past and how crazy we were back then. So nice to have old friends back.
12. I apologize for anything I did to hurt you. If I could go back to that time, I would take it all back. I am happy that you are able to be my friend despite what happened. I hope we grow closer.
13. I'm not sure how we went from being the super close duo we were to not even speaking. I know you went through some tough stuff, and I wish you would have let me help. I am glad to still have your friendship back again. It is stronger now, and I hope it gets back to what it was.
14. Your friendship surprises me. From the beginning I felt unworthy of you. But here we are still friends, and I am very happy for that.
15. You are a great friend, but you wear me out. At times you are so needy that I tire of you. Other times, you are MIA. I wish you didn't let men affect your life like that. I will always be your friend despite everything.
16. We've never been super close, but I want to be and think we can. I feel for you, and I think we have more in common than you know. I am going to make an effort to be a good friend to you.

It's almost Chirstmas

December is already half over. Amazing how it seems to fly by every year. I have one more weekend to Chirstmas shop, and I still have no idea what Justin and I are going to buy when we do go shopping. It really frustrates me that they are his parents, yet he hasn't even thought about what to get them. Instead, it's up to me to stress about it. I may be working on Saturday since we're super busy at work and that only makes it harder to get everything done. I also agreed to babysit on Friday. Oh well, it will get done and Christmas will be wonderful.
This year, I purposefully did not make my birthday public on Myspace and Facebook. The last few years, I got bombarded by birthday wishes--more than I've ever gotten in my life, but it's all very fake. My birthday often gets ignored since it's sandwiched between Thanksgiving and Christmas. I'm often disappointed by the effort my friends put into my birthday. I have thrown parties, bought gifts, made cakes, and received nothing in return time and time again. The one major exception to this rule is James who has lovingly shared his birthday with me for years. All through high school he included me in whatever celebration or party he had and last year, he came to Columbus and we celebrated together.
So this year, I didn't make my birthday known to anyone who wouldn't remember on their own. I got texts from James and Tiffany. A card from Sarah Jewell. Myspace comments from Ashton and Lauren and again from Sarah. Brian was sweet enough to find belated comments for me. And Erin even said happy birthday on her status. So six friends. That's it. It just reenforced what I already knew; that I'm a better friend to some of them than they are to me. Jonas would call them "Clearance Friends" and I agree. However, I have a hard time letting them go. I have met some really good new friends lately and reconnected with others. I should just foster these relationships and appreciate the friends who appreciate me. But it's hard to just write people off you know? But thank you to everyone who remembered my birthday and took the time to say something.
Other than that revelation, my birthday was great. My parents visited with my grandma. They met the dog and we had lunch. It's so nice to have them visit. I really enjoy that Grandma lives with them now. I get to see her when I come home and she's able to travel down with them when they come. I tell my family and friends that there's an open invitation to my house and I love visitors.
Well, I hope you all have a Merry Christmas. We'll be hosting our casual New Year's thing again this year, so feel free to come by. Like always, it's laid back and not that fancy. But we always seem to have a house full of people.